Sometimes, music is the only thing that makes any sense.
A few personal confessions..
I don’t like going to school anymore. I hated it up through middle school, then loved it, and now I hate it again. I don’t even know if I want to learn about computers anymore honestly. My attention span seems to be getting smaller and smaller each day and I have become restless. I’m determined to stick it out though.
I miss being a kid. Things were easy; everything was simple. Small things in life were greatly appreciated.
I don’t like relying on people for things - mostly money from parents. I’m ready to get a real job and become self-sufficient. This goes for things other than money as well.
I worry about anything and everything way too much. If I could just let go a little I would probably have a lot less stress in my life. It seems as if I can’t go one day without completely overwhelming myself. I’m always looking forward which just makes me feel more lost. I have a lot to feel blessed about and I need to remember that.
Finally, I need to gain more faith in myself. Worrying about everything and everyone else has just made me lose my own self-worth and confidence. I’m ready to feel proud of who I am.
So I’m not big on gushy posts, but here goes one. I’ve been so stressed lately about this whole apartment / school / work / bank / bills stuff. Not that everything isn’t going great, it’s just being as OCD as I am, things are never perfect enough for me. I’ve been worrying constantly about thing after thing lately until I realized on my way home yesterday that I sometimes truly lose track of what’s important in life.
With all “prefectionisms” aside, things are just fine in my life right now. I have a loving family, amazing friends, and so many other things going for me. I need to stop sweating the little things, and start enjoying all the blessings that God has given me. Indeed, He only put me on this earth to praise him, NOT my bills, ect. I’m going to make it a point to keep reminding myself that my growing relationship with Him is what will make everything else great and smooth-sailing in my life and beyond. He’s blessed me time after time and from this day forth, I’m counting!